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julius' Site http://julzboy.multiply.com/ You entered at your own risk. Welcome to the Narcissist's world. haha :) Wed, 20 Aug 2008 17:10:59 -0000 Mon, 7 Apr 2008 15:00:58 -0000 julius' Site http://images.julzboy.multiply.com/logo http://julzboy.multiply.com 100 100 This is my first time to post a link on my site... Obviously, there's a very, very good reason for this :) Very well-written blog too :) I wish I could write something as good. :) "<a href="http://teya12.multiply.com/journal/item/60/kakigori_makes_me_happy">Kakigori Makes Me Happy</a>" (and to those who are wondering... No, this isn't a virus, ok? you know who you are hehehe) http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/21/This_is_my_first_time_to_post_a_link_on_my_site... Mon, 7 Apr 2008 15:00:58 -0000 In My Darkest Hour In My Darkest Hour -by Julius Esquivias  It comes at different times for different people. It comes in different forms. Its myriad effects causes undue pressure and unnecessarily raises one’s stress levels.  It forces upon you a feeling of helplessness while choking off your air, practically daring you to give up. Doubt forms and self-confidence dissolves as frustration envelops your person. You shudder either in disgust or in trepidation. Your stomach gets squeamish and your knees start to buckle. You ask the questions, not knowing if they are the right ones. And you filter answers to hear only those that you want to. Your sense and sensibilities disappear. Suddenly, you’re so far away from your comfort zone. Suddenly, you are all alone.In came to me earlier today, at a time when I fully expected to be jubilant in my success. The weakest point of my life came as a complete surprise and left me helplessly torn apart. When it did, I felt that everything tha... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/20/In_My_Darkest_Hour Sat, 29 Mar 2008 16:03:29 -0000 WAITING -a different perspective Waitingby julz e. Whatever you do, wherever you go, whoever you meet, you will always chance upon someone overly concerned about the when. Someone worrying about the time; time as it continually goes by; even as he wonders if it’s pointless to even try.             But they do. Because try as they might, they cannot escape the fact that waiting is, and always will be a part of everyone's lives.          And people wait for various reasons. You see it everyday. Morning commuters look at their watches, praying to heavens that they won’t be late. Eager relatives await the timely arrival of their family coming home from abroad. You also see those grade school students waiting patiently for the traffic light to turn green. Or that one person who is nervously waiting for the bar results to come out. Or that expectant mother, impatiently waiting for her doctor to call back. On one hand, you occasionally find yo... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/19/WAITING_-a_different_perspective Mon, 3 Mar 2008 12:50:09 -0000 ESSAY: The Game of Wait and See The Game of Wait and See         You’ve been seeing each other for about *three months now. Up to this point, you still can’t tell if he’s into you, or if he’s serious enough to get involved with. You occasionally have dinners together and even get to catch a movie every once in a while. He regularly texts you to ask how you’re doing but seldom does he show unwavering interest, other than when he needs an opinion or help on something. Oftentimes, even both. Being the typical girl, you don’t really assume that he likes you. You say to yourself that he’s there, simply to be a friend. Someone whom you can bond with and say things you don’t usually share about yourself. This rather interesting guy you’ve been going out with is fast becoming your best friend. That’s what you’ve been telling yourself. Sometimes, you even want to believe that.  The truth is, you’re confused. He has been sending out mixed signals. He certainly can make you lau... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/18/ESSAY_The_Game_of_Wait_and_See Sat, 12 Jan 2008 18:43:26 -0000 just so you'd know... Just So You’d Know   It was by instinct that I knew you were perfect. In your deeds and in your thoughts, An inspired illusion, limited to my mind. And I watch in disbelief As you dance to the tune of unparalleled beauty.   I glance back to the time when I first met you. And I remember not talking. You probably thought I was a waste of time. You did, didn’t you? I hope you realize that it was only because I was lost in you, And I couldn’t find my way out, Nor did I care to try.   So what am I to do When I find myself searching for you Every single time that you’re not here   Nothing I suppose   Just as I cherish every single glimpse, Each moment that I’m with you, I fear for the day when you’d finally decide, That it’s time to move on, and live your own life In a place so far A place so distant from me.   As I count the days before you go, I hope you’d find it okay That I whisper in my prayers for time to move slower While... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/16/just_so_youd_know... Sun, 9 Dec 2007 15:00:42 -0000 My birthday gift to my father... on my birthday :) Today's my birthday. I know. Yet, it seems like I'm writing this blog now NOT in honor of what I have done for myself all this time, but rather, a reflection of the great influence my dad has had on my formative years. I wrote the poem 11 years ago. July 22, 1996. Yep, a day after a birthday. haha. I wrote the essay 3 years later as a college freshman in Ateneo. I read them a while ago and I couldn't help but notice how childish they sounded. To think that I thought I knew EVERYTHING back then. It even came to the point that I thought I was a pretty good writer. haha. Sometimes, it's better that you don't actually see past works so you can pretend that you had pretty a solid stretch of writing good pieces. hahaha.. oh well :) Disclaimer: I really wanted to edit both works, but I thought I'd only be cheating myself. So here they are as I originally showed them to my father (the poem) and my English Professor (the essay). So, I hope you enjoy them nontheless :) ------------------------... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/13/My_birthday_gift_to_my_father..._on_my_birthday_ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 09:40:57 -0000 Dugo video!.mp4 this video was taken before i left for the states last march 28. hello papato.. hello wiiiiz! quick notes: 1) arvin esquivias daw sha? he's not! hehe 2) my mom was blackmailing dugo with a book in this video hehe 3) nilalanggam si dugo nung first part ng vid kasi nilagyan ko! hehe 4) nasa states na ulit si papato and luis 5) ang ibig sabihin ng Ay-you ay "i love you" hehehe http://julzboy.multiply.com/video/item/7/Dugo_video.mp4 Sat, 16 Jun 2007 21:05:38 -0000 In Your Darkest Hour In Your Darkest Hour -by Julius Esquivias  It comes at different times for different people. It comes in different forms. Its myriad effects causes undue pressure and unnecessarily raises one’s stress levels.  It forces upon you a feeling of helplessness while choking off your air, practically daring you to give up. Doubt forms and self-confidence dissolves as frustration envelops your person. You shudder either in disgust or in trepidation. Your stomach gets squeamish and your knees start to buckle. You ask the questions, not knowing if they are the right ones. And you filter answers to hear only those that you want to. Your sense and sensibilities disappear. Suddenly, you’re so far away from your comfort zone. Suddenly, you are all alone. The weakest point of your life can come as a complete surprise and leave you helplessly torn apart. When it does, you feel that everything that matters is at an end. At such a juncture, your mind conjures Failure as your... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/11/In_Your_Darkest_Hour Sun, 10 Jun 2007 18:45:31 -0000 A serious essay by Julius Esquivias                                                                  The Flight Home         As the song goes, "All my bags are packed, I’m ready to go". And in a few hours, I actually would. It will be back to the old grind of incessant studying. One, which I've tried so hard to put off, knowing very well that it would be something I’d be stuck with for the next four-plus months.         So I’m trying to convince myself that this is just another flight back home; working under the presumption that this would be much like all the others I have made from vacation spots the world over. But no matter how often I try to tell myself that I am making a trip similar to the count... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/9/A_serious_essay_by_Julius_Esquivias Thu, 19 Apr 2007 23:26:17 -0000 WANTED HORSEMEN <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/RgLOLwoKCmgAAFrU36Y1"><img class="alignmiddle" src="http://images.julzboy.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/RgLOLwoKCmgAAFrU36Y1/wanted%20horsemen.jpg?et=4kwVPYm4wMXW6JibVQP3Hg" border="0"></a> Not that we're desperate for new members, but informal applications simply aren't our thing. So here's the deal. Since we've been branded as "needy" people, here's a list of the qualities we're looking for in a prospective horseman/woman. These are formal requisites. If you don't have them, your application forms would be void. : (This list isn't gender sensitive... not like jon, who is ultra sensitive) 1) You must love trash (in tagalog, mahalin ang basura). Be one with trash and you're half-way in. (yes it's true, we all took the law and environment elective. Dami-daming basura sa pilipinas, wag niyo nang dagdagan). 2) You must love humor. Not rumors. Mashado na kaming maraming issue. or ka-issue. or issuances. Follow the adage "do not issue what cannot be issued" 3) You must believe in hope. sa pag-asa. hindi sa paasa. Magkaiba yun. Yung una, masarap. yung pangalawa, masaklap. Iba rin yun sa laps. (teka, wag na tayo pumunta dun) 4) You must have gone through heartaches before. yung... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/7/WANTED_HORSEMEN Thu, 22 Mar 2007 19:14:45 -0000 Grabeng Issue haha.. i should be writing my supervised legal research right now. But I read my barkada's poem which he submitted to Portia for the annual Poetry Sojourn. (or whatever it is called, i don't remember hehe) Anyway, this poem is my immediate reaction to his poem. Na-inspire lang kasi ako. Don't read anything behind this :) Pag-bigyan niyo na ako. Bihira akong magsulat ng Filipino poem. (obvious naman sa quality... or the lack thereof hehe) I'm also posting my friend's poem after my poem :) His poem is entitled TYPO. I think that's his best work yet:) Grabe May kaibigan akong sumulat ng tula. Tungkol sa "Typo" o maling pagsulat. Napaisip akong Grabe ang tama niya, Sa minahal niyang, di namin inakala. Natawa ako sa simula. Sinabi kong hindi mangyayari sakin yun. Ang umasa sa wala? Pag-asang binabaliwala? Sa loob-loob ko… “pare, ang sagwa”. Nagpatawa na lang ako. Dun naman kasi kami magaling. Humirit akong “pagdating sa chicks, makinig ka kasi sakin”. ... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/5/Grabeng_Issue Sat, 24 Feb 2007 09:20:27 -0000 Nagpapaka witty lang ako... 10:18 Feb 22, 2007 Napaka sipag ko talaga. Dami-dami kong trabaho. I'm at the Office of Legal Aid right now. I'm supposed to be working. But I'm too distracted. On one hand, I'm quite happy because I'm finally friends again with my bestfriend of three years. THREE YEARS!. (For some reason, "3 years" reminds me of something else...) Anyway, back to my rantings. Bati na kami. To think I was willing to forget almost all my "law school friends" because I thought they were siding with her without even bothering to hear my side. But we're good :) We're fine. Basura na ulit kami. haha What I'm more concerned about is that there's currently a vicious rumor circulating in school that I did something bad to my former-bestfriend. Ginamit ko raw sha to further my studies (pinapagawa ko raw sa kanya mga school work ko) and that I played with her feelings. Basically, I used her DAW. That's simply untrue and grossly unfair to me and to her. Ang totoo lang e... ako ang ginamit niya at ako ang pi... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/4/Nagpapaka_witty_lang_ako... Thu, 22 Feb 2007 03:09:57 -0000 Why I'm a horseman written last February 3, 2007 From: <a href="http://julzboy.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/">http://julzboy.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/</a> Note to non-law students: My barkada in law school is called the "Four horsemen". Though in reality, there's 5 of us there. Complicated? Not really. Bobo lang isa sa amin sa math :) You can check out our barkada friendster account through <a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=32057969">http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=32057969</a> Anyway, this next blog is a reproduction of what I wrote in our blog in that account :) ____OOO______________________OOO_______________________OOO______________________ Honestly, I didn't think that we'd become "us". The Courtship stage was so brief that I couldn't help but blush everytime I think about it. And I thought i was raised a conservative. Then again, you can't help it when you realize that that special feeling inside you has already consumed you and you're just dying to express it. So we aspired to become Master Debaters by coaching each other on debating tactics. Some... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/3/Why_Im_a_horseman Fri, 9 Feb 2007 18:46:19 -0000 I stole a blog from someone I didn't know... (this blog is a reproduction of my blog in friendster <a href="http://julzboy.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/">http://julzboy.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/</a>) ... I know I've professed to hating people who take blogs and parade it around to be bashed by other people of the same ilk, but... I can't help but take this recent one I've read. But I did this to praise it. So if any of her friends get to read this and recognize it from somewhere... Yes, i got it from her. And No, I didn't get her permission. As Christian 'the nigguh' Arbues once said... "Sorry, My bad, I show you love". ____OOO______________________OOO_______________________OOO______________________ "You have always wanted the woman. Your days and nights are filled with fantasies of her. She with her red lipstick and spicy perfume...She who always gives you a light and beats you out into puffing a full smoke...She who expertly cuts speeding cars and conquers Manila traffic in one breath...She who kicks off her stilettos to stand on the hood of your c... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/2/I_stole_a_blog_from_someone_I_didnt_know... Thu, 28 Dec 2006 10:14:47 -0000 Debuts, Cars and baby millionaires this is a reproduction of my friendster blog :) <a href=http://julzboy.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/>http://julzboy.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/</a> ____OOO_________________________OOO____ My Sister... Maria Carmela Florentyna Angeles Esquivias will be celebrating her 18th birthday on December 27, 2006. (I had to ask her how to spell her second and third names, would you believe?). She'll be celebrating it together with my dad who's birthday falls on December 16. For those who will receive an invite, you will see a short poem which I wrote as if I was in her position. I just had to pretend I was her. Hmm, it's easy being a girl. hahaha Carmela Esquivias An occasion for celebration will soon be at hand, And with Your presence, it will be a day like no other. It has come to the point where I am about to go out of my shell. To travel the path of the unknown; of the world of ladies and of men. I am apprehensive, yet I am excited of the things I will have coming my way. I am a girl to many, but a Princess at heart. And You, by gracing this... http://julzboy.multiply.com/journal/item/1/Debuts_Cars_and_baby_millionaires Tue, 12 Dec 2006 17:16:05 -0000